Update on Me, Weight, the Universe, and Everything

I have posted a tad more frequently over at The Knit Farm, but I am still here. I've talked a bit about mom and how I'm feeling over there - very short synopsis, I'm still awfully sad muchof the time, but doing better. I find myself existing on the surface a lot; when I dig deeper, it's still raw, and I'm not handling raw so well. A note from someone (thanks, A., for reading the archives of my posts and commenting!) was just the right nudge to get me over here for an update post.

I managed to eat fairly sensibly while we were in the US for a couple of weeks, and not too poorly once we came back. However, the evening snacking is back, lack of greenery in the diet, and lack of menu planning as well - all of these contribute to subtle but steady weight gain, and as of this morning, I was up to 185. Still 21 pounds down since December but 6 pounds up from the beginning of April. 1.5 pounds up a month.

The thing keeping me from going too crazy is the fact that I tossed all my old "fat pants" so I can sense even this 6-pound gain in the fit of my clothes. When it hit 6 pounds, my UK 14s refused to fit. So I'm down to 4 pairs of jeans, 2 of which are ratty. The others sit on the shelf in my closet, mocking me... Incentive, boys and girls.

I haven't been tracking in FitDay, and I know it's helpful. Getting back to it is another essential tool to keep going. Today I will log what I eat, even if it's not the most considered eating. Gotta start again somewhere!